[sticky entry] Sticky: deets

Dec. 8th, 2018 08:21 am
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I'm [personal profile] toujours_nigel/[archiveofourown.org profile] toujours_nigel/[tumblr.com profile] walburgablack, You can also call me Rhea, or TJ. I like to rant about things at the drop of a hat, and bigotry will get you banned.

This journal is mostly public, so friending/subscribing is wonderful but not remotely required. I don't post very often, and have been unable to alter that for years, but I'm trying. Most of what I post is fic or ficbits or occasionally icons or meta. There will be personal stuff now and then, but that's mostly not what this journal is about/for.

I love comments, but I get that they can be difficult--they often are for me--so in lieu of likes/reblogs, you can stick a ♥ in the comments (if you want) and we'll go from there. I also like longer comments, so you do your thing. I try to answer all comments, but my attention might lag at the tail-end of a long conversation. Comment on anything you like, no matter how old. :)

I would love to have my fic live-blogged, read-through, transformed or engaged with in any way. Just maybe drop me a line, and link me to whatever you do. I especially cherish art, because I have no visual imagination.

Demographic note: Indian, Bengali, Hindu, lesbian, Ph.D candidate. I speak and write English and Bengali, and struggle with idiomatic Hindi.

[sticky entry] Sticky: fic prompts

Dec. 21st, 2018 12:16 am
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Please leave a prompt with your character/s of choice (upto four) and some sort of short prompt: a word, a colour, a phrase, or even a song. I am hoping to collect about thirty, so as to work on them through till my next birthday.

Expect each fic to be roughly 1000-3000 words long.

Fandoms are Mahabharata, Iliad, The Charioteer, Harry Potter, every SRK film, Little Women, Austen novels, Renault's Alexander series. Other things if you know I'm familiar.

ETA: I will periodically update this doc to reflect prompts given. Cease and desist once I've hit 30, please.

  • Pride and Prejudice; Elizabeth/Darcy; collaboration
  • The Charioteer, Ralph/Bunny, the short drunk that preceded the long hangover  
  • The Queen's Thief; Costis/Kamet (but up to you); winter
  • Harry and Luna (or Harry/Luna as you see fit), joy
  • Om Shanti Om, Shantipriya & Any, “Bitter your acts, bitter am I, Kindness your deeds, kindness am I.”(Rumi)
  • Mahabharata, Any, who you are in the darkness
  • Jodhaa Akbar, Jodhaa & Any, “Love is paying attention”
  • Mahabharata, Any, Gallivant
  • Masters of Rome; Sulla and Julius Caesar; Sulla's thoughts when he meets Caesar and Caesar refuses to divorce his wife
  • Jodhaa Akbar; Bakshi Banu and Jodhaa; relationship
  • Mahabharata; Kunti and Gandhari; sisterhood
  • The Last of the Wine - Alexias and Thalia in the aftermath of Lysis' death
  • Mughal-e-Azam, Bahar/Anarkali, jealousy and kindness (this is a reach, feel to ignore)
  • Kal Ho Na Ho - AU where Aman doesn't die????
  • Aśoka (2001), Aśoka and enlightenment
toujours_nigel: (slytherin)
Sometimes I do things that I bracket in my head as Slytherin, things that I could do without and kinda don't wanna but will help in the long-run.
My actual Ph.D is not one of these things, since it's the basic requirement to teach at even the undergrad level, and I'm too dysfunctional to get one while actively teaching. But I signed up as a freelance invigilator, which gives me a bit of money when I have the time/energy, and that's a Slytherin thing for me. I appeared in and passed a country-wide qualifying exam and that's another.
About four anna half years ago, I had a nervous collapse and failed to submit a finished M.Phil thesis. While I am no longer in that discipline, I plan to reformat it and send it around as an article when I can, and that'll be a Slytherin thing.
Finally, I am now writing a week of exams to get through a second Masters degree, and if I pass that'll be my longest-running Slytherin thing yet. I'd say fingers crossed, but also i looked up how to register for supplementary exams if I flunk. Because the thing is, Slytherin things aren't always sensible, and coinciding this with my last semester in Ph.D (when I have to write my thesis or die trying) means I barely studied for these exams. But anyway.
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Because [personal profile] avani008 is hosting a Mythological Couple Celebration Week over on tumblr, and my writer's block doesn't apply to Mahabharata meta and never has, I made a (bad) photoset and then wrote an essay. Under a cut because it's an essay.

Read more... )

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Your rainbow is intensely shaded gray, orange, and red.


What is says about you: You are a passionate person. You appreciate a challenge. Others are amazed at how you don't give up. You depend on modern technology and may feel uncomfortable without it.

Find the colors of your rainbow at spacefem.com.
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Walked in on one of our profs. discussing The Hours with one of my juniors, and ended up dwelling on how different that film would be if it were racebent to be more diverse.
Imagine the 50s sequence with African American characters living under Jim Crow laws and moving into the Civil Rights movement, with the husband still a WWII soldier. Race had such an impact on the ways in which men coming home from war reacted to the homes they came back to, and that would just be such an interesting watch/read. Plus the ways in which race inflected femininity.
And then the modern-day scenes in New York, with Asian, and Latinx people also present, as they were and are in queer scenes.

It would just. It would be really cool. I miss Racebending.
toujours_nigel: lotr party notice (privateranting)
 gonna go talk to my guide about next chapter, a good two-thirds of which is about how fandom is seen as immoral. the man asked wheter star wars was fanfic of star trek last time, when i was explaining the beginnings of modern transformative fandom to him, that's how bad he is about pop-culture.

hold me.

ETA: I can write fic, and I can write meta, but when I try to write meta about meta I apparently slip into writing meta instead.
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 Empire star Jussie Smollet has been hospitalised after a racist and homophobic attack in Chicago by MAGA dudes who put his neck in a noose.

Icon Post

Jan. 29th, 2019 07:17 pm
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Ganked from [personal profile] rydra_wong
How it works: reply with "Oh! Shiny" and I'll choose three of your icons. Tell me about them: where they came from, what they mean to you, and/or when you deploy them. Drop a link here to your post in your own journal. Spread it around.

She gave me three that I actually made recently, in the wake of the tumblr debacles.

I cropped this from a photoshoot about Varanasi, it's the dangling feet of someone painted blue to play Krishna; probably a bahurupi. It's my krishna icon, used mostly for posts about the god, epics, Hindu mythology, etc. My favourite god, master manipulator in my favourite epic, so I... well I don't actually talk about my religion a whole bunch on dw, but I do write Mahabharata fic, so it seemed apt in my last round of icon-making.

This is Peter O'Toole from--i think--Lord Jim. He's my face-claim for Ralph Lanyon, one of the romantic leads of The Charioteer, a merchant-navy sailor and RNVR officer who canonically has the nervous tic of touching his collar for reassurance. He's neurotic and disabled and queer and fucked-up; I love him more than I can easily explain.

So a few years ago there was a Buzzfeed article about men with mehndi looking stunning, by the always awesome Imaan Sheikh. I immediately incorporated the look into my personal headcanon of traditional West and South Asian masculinity, which was and is very different from Western, especially Anglo constructs of the same, and absolutely incorporates cosmetics and jewellery, not as a rebellious or punk or genderfluid thing, but as part of normative masc. presentation.
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An old-school activity for an old-school fandom.

Twenty-one icons under the cut )

As always, free for the taking.
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In my experience*, the acceptability of fandom in the Global North has involved a disavowal and pushing-under-the-bus of non-transformative and for-profit piracy which characterises fannish experience in the Global South.

So it is fascinating to watch how the intersection of transformative and for-profit piracy works upon people.

* as both a fan from the Global South for the last decade and half, and a piracy researcher in the last three years.
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 I fell down and scraped my right palm, toes on the right foot, both elbows, and left knee. And then I went to the meeting with my guide for which I was hurrying and talked about work while vaguely dizzy. Have come back and made rice.

Also got a plant from my aunt (and this is even more euphonic than immediately apparent, since I call her Mani and she sent a money-plant) because my birthday is tomorrow.

ETA: Told guide about tumblr and Star Wars fanzines and left the OTW homepage open on his desktop. Streams are crossing excessively.
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 I wondered whether to reserve this for Wednesday and try and do that as a regular thing, but frankly I either read for my thesis or I read fanfic, so no. I did stumble into a new-ish obsession and--as is usual for me--have now consumed a lot of it.

[personal profile] dira has been discussing Band of Brothers on her tumblr a bit, and I was freaking out about writing so I pirated the first couple episodes on... Wednesday night or Thursday morning. It is now Saturday night and I have watched eight episodes, read Ambrose's book (that it is based on), a follow-up and bio of Dick Winters by Larry Alexander (Biggest Brother), obtained Bill Guarnere's book, and read a cumulative 250k+ of fic, the largest chunk of it a whopping 150k of post-war domesticity starring, not Winters/Nixon (the obvious otp) but Speirs/Lipton. I read it before I'd watched them have so much as a conversation, but having seen eps. 7 & 8, I do very much now ship it.

fwiw, Dick Winters Actual thought the show made him look queer, and was affably disgruntled about it (having seen the scenes concerned, I gotta say, man is in the right there); I dunno whether anyone asked either Speirs or Lipton (both of whom were irl very married and not to each other, natch) their opinions about the show (Speirs died in 2007, Lipton in '01) but there does seem to be something there. I mean, it isn't just me having slash glasses on, there's plenty of close friendships on the show (and irl) that don't seem remotely romantic to me, but Speirs and Lipton are shown as having practically a martial meet-cute. It's all very heroic.

But anyhow, I have fallen into a new fandom and cannot get out. Send supplies and reinforcements. 

toujours_nigel: (slytherin)
Day 15: Talk about why you participated in Snowflake &/or what you got out of it.

Well, I participated because
  • I wanted something structured to post that wouldn't take too much effort
  • I've seen it happening previously and never managed to do it myself.
I mostly connected to people I don't know, so it helped in the socialising/extended friending meme aspect. Did also get to thrash out some vague-ish ideas about fandom or specific fandoms. Oh, and I pushed a bit and wrote a story on Day 10.

toujours_nigel: lotr party notice (privateranting)
Day 14: In your own space, talk about what you think the future holds for fandom.

I think fandom needs to be intersectional and federated. [personal profile] cesperanza's entry for today discusses the technical side of this far better than I could, so that, basically.

On the other side, I think fandom is deeply and historically Western, in ways that have led to incredible idiocies in the past (RaceFail, yo). In part this is because the Global South doesn't do fanfic etc in the same ways; in India at least the fannish impulse for films and books mostly discharges itself in the same way as it does for sports: fanclubs and events and cheering and legit temples I kid you not. Every Indian fanwriter/artist I've found online has been middle-class and upwards, and found their way into fandom through a love of Western sources.

(This is not to say that there aren't fanworks being produced in India, but they're not (by and large) locked into fandom in any recognisable fashion. One of the coolest remake-groups functions out of a tiny, ex-industrial town in Maharashtra, where they take Hollywood and Bollywood films and adapt them to their own circumstances: their best-known is a Superman adaptation.)

But I digress. I would love for fandom to be more accessible, and OTW's translation movement is a very good beginning to which I wish I'd contributed more. But also a space for fandom in other cultures and languages, which is one of those things that tumblr was really good for, because you could just go through the tags and not have to know the people involved, because a shared love for Bollywood or Indian history or (worse) mythology doesn't actually indicate that you'll like each other. Which... brings me back to the need for federated fandom, I guess.

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 soooo I just binged S3 of The Magicians and I’m dying screaming. Someone come have feelings with me?

ETA: this show comes back on my birthday, and if they make Eliot rape Q I'm just... i like you show, just don't do that, okay? just don't
toujours_nigel: Greek, red-figure Rhea (Rhea)
Day 13: In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.

Fannishly I want to
  • write at least 50k of fic excluding Yuletide
  • write fic for as many prompts as I get
  • have a good Yuletide
  • try and comment more
  • be more engaged fannishly
Nonfannishly I want to
  • write and shop around at least five stories over the year
  • write one of the novels [personal profile] bee_muse and I've been planning for years

As a major reason for setting goals publicly is to be held accountable, I would love if people, um, held me accountable. Prompt me! Ask me things! Make me do stuff!
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Day 12: In your own space, create your own challenge.

Communicate with your corner of fandom, and with fandom at large. Leave kudos, comment on fic and journal entries, reblog posts on tumblr. Just... acknowledge your own presence in fandom, let others know you agree with them or enjoy their work or are glad they're around.

Fandom isn't a place, it's people. Make them feel seen by letting yourself be seen. ♥

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 SO is now on dw as [personal profile] bee_muse because she can't log in to her [personal profile] filia_noctis account which was empty anyhow and has started on the [community profile] snowflake_challenge. Her first entry is here.

Also! I enjoy some of the things the Troy show does, especially about material culture, but uh.
I'm not really watching for the plot.


toujours_nigel: (writer)
Day 11: In your own space, talk about your creative process(es) — anything from the initial inspiration to how you feel after something’s done. Do you struggle with motivation or is it a smooth process? Do you have any tricks up your sleeve to pull out when a fanwork isn’t cooperating? What is your level of planning to pantsing/winging it?

On a 0-10 scale where 0 is pantsing it and 10 is meticulous planning, I'm at about a 4, which is considerably higher than it used to be, which was at about 0. I started out in fandom writing drabbles, pretty much into the lj posting box, and that's still how I write not!fic and meta on tumblr. For longer fic I usually carry an idea around for weeks before I get to writing it down, but even then I rarely have scenes planned out, and it shows: most of my fic is utterly without plot, just a knotty ramble of feelings and introspection.

Since a lot of my stories are distant in time and place, I do end up doing odd little bits of research, but I'm very lax even there, and far more likely to abandon things when they get difficult. No surprises that I've left a Wimsey crossover hanging for absolute years because I can't possibly plot out a detective story. The lack of planning also tells on my lack of longer fic, which I can't really manage in a febrile rant, and my two abandoned HP stories bear sad witness to this tendency. I have to say no to the tricks up sleeve for uncooperative fic, and how!

Well, that turned self-deprecating fast. I enjoy giving characters room to be introspective, and I like writing moments of calm in frantically-paced canon. I don't have much luck self-starting, so I'm always happy to get prompts. In fact, if you like my fic, do suggest a prompt. Or if you wanna know about any particular fic, drop a line and gimme an excuse to be voluble.

toujours_nigel: (kanai)
Day 10: Create a fanwork.

(2001 words) by toujours_nigel
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Mahabharata - Vyasa
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Draupadi & Shatrunjaya
Characters: Draupadi (Mahabharata), Shatrunjaya (Mahabharata)
Additional Tags: Sibling Bonding
Summary: The problem with the Panchalans was that there were thrice as many of them as their father could use and they rode around Bharatvarsha making nuisances of themselves.

Prompted by, and for [personal profile] allegoriesinmediasres who asked for Mahabharata, Any, Gallivant. Still taking ficprompts here. Counting it for Snowflake because I'd had no intention of writing another fic so soon after the previous one.


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