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Day 15: Talk about why you participated in Snowflake &/or what you got out of it.

Well, I participated because
  • I wanted something structured to post that wouldn't take too much effort
  • I've seen it happening previously and never managed to do it myself.
I mostly connected to people I don't know, so it helped in the socialising/extended friending meme aspect. Did also get to thrash out some vague-ish ideas about fandom or specific fandoms. Oh, and I pushed a bit and wrote a story on Day 10.




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Day 14: In your own space, talk about what you think the future holds for fandom.

I think fandom needs to be intersectional and federated. [personal profile] cesperanza's entry for today discusses the technical side of this far better than I could, so that, basically.

On the other side, I think fandom is deeply and historically Western, in ways that have led to incredible idiocies in the past (RaceFail, yo). In part this is because the Global South doesn't do fanfic etc in the same ways; in India at least the fannish impulse for films and books mostly discharges itself in the same way as it does for sports: fanclubs and events and cheering and legit temples I kid you not. Every Indian fanwriter/artist I've found online has been middle-class and upwards, and found their way into fandom through a love of Western sources.

(This is not to say that there aren't fanworks being produced in India, but they're not (by and large) locked into fandom in any recognisable fashion. One of the coolest remake-groups functions out of a tiny, ex-industrial town in Maharashtra, where they take Hollywood and Bollywood films and adapt them to their own circumstances: their best-known is a Superman adaptation.)

But I digress. I would love for fandom to be more accessible, and OTW's translation movement is a very good beginning to which I wish I'd contributed more. But also a space for fandom in other cultures and languages, which is one of those things that tumblr was really good for, because you could just go through the tags and not have to know the people involved, because a shared love for Bollywood or Indian history or (worse) mythology doesn't actually indicate that you'll like each other. Which... brings me back to the need for federated fandom, I guess.

toujours_nigel: Greek, red-figure Rhea (Rhea)
Day 13: In your own space, set some goals for the coming year. They can be fannish or not, public or private.

Fannishly I want to
  • write at least 50k of fic excluding Yuletide
  • write fic for as many prompts as I get
  • have a good Yuletide
  • try and comment more
  • be more engaged fannishly
Nonfannishly I want to
  • write and shop around at least five stories over the year
  • write one of the novels [personal profile] bee_muse and I've been planning for years





As a major reason for setting goals publicly is to be held accountable, I would love if people, um, held me accountable. Prompt me! Ask me things! Make me do stuff!
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Day 12: In your own space, create your own challenge.

Communicate with your corner of fandom, and with fandom at large. Leave kudos, comment on fic and journal entries, reblog posts on tumblr. Just... acknowledge your own presence in fandom, let others know you agree with them or enjoy their work or are glad they're around.

Fandom isn't a place, it's people. Make them feel seen by letting yourself be seen. ♥


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Day 11: In your own space, talk about your creative process(es) — anything from the initial inspiration to how you feel after something’s done. Do you struggle with motivation or is it a smooth process? Do you have any tricks up your sleeve to pull out when a fanwork isn’t cooperating? What is your level of planning to pantsing/winging it?

On a 0-10 scale where 0 is pantsing it and 10 is meticulous planning, I'm at about a 4, which is considerably higher than it used to be, which was at about 0. I started out in fandom writing drabbles, pretty much into the lj posting box, and that's still how I write not!fic and meta on tumblr. For longer fic I usually carry an idea around for weeks before I get to writing it down, but even then I rarely have scenes planned out, and it shows: most of my fic is utterly without plot, just a knotty ramble of feelings and introspection.

Since a lot of my stories are distant in time and place, I do end up doing odd little bits of research, but I'm very lax even there, and far more likely to abandon things when they get difficult. No surprises that I've left a Wimsey crossover hanging for absolute years because I can't possibly plot out a detective story. The lack of planning also tells on my lack of longer fic, which I can't really manage in a febrile rant, and my two abandoned HP stories bear sad witness to this tendency. I have to say no to the tricks up sleeve for uncooperative fic, and how!

Well, that turned self-deprecating fast. I enjoy giving characters room to be introspective, and I like writing moments of calm in frantically-paced canon. I don't have much luck self-starting, so I'm always happy to get prompts. In fact, if you like my fic, do suggest a prompt. Or if you wanna know about any particular fic, drop a line and gimme an excuse to be voluble.


toujours_nigel: blue-painted feet crossed at the ankle against a teal bg (kanai)
Day 10: Create a fanwork.

dravati
(2001 words) by toujours_nigel
Chapters: 1/1
Fandom: Mahabharata - Vyasa
Rating: General Audiences
Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply
Relationships: Draupadi & Shatrunjaya
Characters: Draupadi (Mahabharata), Shatrunjaya (Mahabharata)
Additional Tags: Sibling Bonding
Summary: The problem with the Panchalans was that there were thrice as many of them as their father could use and they rode around Bharatvarsha making nuisances of themselves.

Prompted by, and for [personal profile] allegoriesinmediasres who asked for Mahabharata, Any, Gallivant. Still taking ficprompts here. Counting it for Snowflake because I'd had no intention of writing another fic so soon after the previous one.




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Day 8: In your own space, post self-recs for at least three fanworks that you created.

Thanks, I hate it! I'm gonna reserve the self-deprecation because that's primarily self-loathing with a dash of self-pity, and okay, these are the stories that have been most difficult for me to write, for whatever reason. Because I'm perfectionist and masochistic, they're also my favourites. Please pay attention to all tags and warnings if you read them.

jadidang hridayang (4346 words)
Fandom: Mahabharata - Vyasa

The Thousandth Man (6569 words)
Fandom: The Charioteer - Mary Renault

not reached the stars (4856 words)
Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling

your turn in the field with the god (11731 words)
Fandom: Hadestown - Mitchell, Greek and Roman Mythology



I am happy to talk about any of these or any other fic at length if asked, but even doing this much is freaking me out so. uh.
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Day 7: Stretch yourself a little and try something new.

One of the suggestions was to make a reclist, which I have never done in all my years in fandom. So, something new it is.
When I started reading fic, some decade and half ago, there were about half-a-dozen writers I found who seemed to know each other, and wrote across fandoms, including fandoms for which I had not only never consumed the canon, but didn't know of the canon's existence at all. But I was a wee and fic-starved Rhea, so I read everything they wrote, and when they moved onto a different canon I read everything there as well. I still do this when I find a new author I trust. I'm still reading fic they write, so these are a few of my all-time faves from my all-time faves, which are very likely to also be fandom classics, because I am a predictable sheep.


Harry Potter

House Proud, one of Astolat's recent Harry Potter fic, and one of my favourite iterations of Draco Malfoy, and one of few fics where I actually ship Drarry. this is a pattern with astolat
Seven Things That Didn't Happen On Valentine's Day At Hogwarts, Or Maybe They Did by Rageprufrock, which is a stunner and early example of the X+1 things genre. I just reread it after five years, and I still love it every bit as much.
Copperbadge's Stealing Harryverse, which consists of 12 stories (including an unfinished PoA and notes towards later books) where Harry is raised by Sirius and Remus. It shot him into BNF-status and cemented my fannish love for Potter when I first found it on FictionAlley.
The Black Knight by Musesfool, in which Sirius becomes Batman. No really.


MCU

4 Minute Window, Cesperanza's lovely, life-affirming series, currently in its fourth year of Steve/Bucky domesticity. I reread the whole thing every few months, and the podfic is its own perfect thing.
Greetings to the New Brunette, where Steve and Bucky get a baby, because Musesfool is nice to us.
Magazineverse, Copperbadge's duology of Peter Parker's longform articles about The Avengers.
Reconstruction, Rageprufrock's stunning w.i.p about Stephanie Barnes, because I adore genderbenders.
Revelations, where Thor dies, Loki and the Avengers travel to Valhalla to retrieve him, and Thor & Loki have a baby, in that order. Astolat brings her terrifying A-game of making readers ship stuff they may not have been shipping.


Merlin
Drastically Redefining Protocol by Rageprufrock is one of many takes in the fandom on the modern royalty trope, and has an Arthur who's... well, he's Arthur, he's a berk and beloved and just absolute sunshine. And Merlin's still magic, and the prettiest princess.
Astolat's The Beltane Cycle is on the other end of things, deeply invested not just in the magic of the show, but the deeper magics into which it rarely ventures.


SGA

Bell Curve by Rageprufrock, a series which starts with Rodney McKay meeting John Sheppard in a strip club, and just really *commits* to the prof/TA thing.
Written by the Victors, which I had actually forgotten was by Cesperanza, is this sprawling stunning history project that is just a masterclass in craft.
Ordinary Life, a Cesperanza and Astolat coproduction where Rodney and John are back on earth and everyone makes the usual assumptions.
Story of a Girl by Seperis, because I'm weak for genderflip stories that take into account the difference it makes even when it may not be supposed to, and also because, well, it's Sep, the story is stunning.


Smallville

Conflicts of Interest is Rageprufrock's stunning portrayal of Lex Luthor as a biological fugitive, whose son is mold (but good mold). Please, please read the series, because it's got one of the best child characters I have ever read, *and* his transition into adolescence is also entirely believable.
Reconciliable Differences also features Lex as a father, but Astolat gives us canonical Kon-El, grown in a lab and not easy being anyone's son, any more than Clark is easy being a father. Also the fic that made me interested in Tim Drake, tbh.
Seperis' Somewhere I Have Never Travelled is a story where Clark decides to give up his powers and become human, and things go from there. Skip the last couple stories if you don't wanna cry. A lot.
Now one of Rageprufrock and Seperis' co-written fic, This, Too, which I absolutely read at a formative and possibly too-young age, because back when I was a wee fanchild, I knew to click the 18+ button and keep my mouth shut.


Supernatural

Down to Agincourt, Seperis' fic set in the post-apocalyptic verse we catch a glimpse of in Season 4... except not really. Just go read: this fic has its own fandom, incredible art and metafic, and the slowest of slow-burn dystopic domesticities.
The Other Side, by Astolat et al, which is a 25 minute SPN fanfilm with genderfuckery. And dragons!
Wayfinding, by Rageprufrock, which is a w.i.p but I do not care, read it anyhow, it has the best genderflipped Dean Winchester I've ever read.


Star Wars
I love all of Musesfool's Star Wars fic, even the ones for which I don't have canon knowledge, but her On the Day series is my current fave.
to the sky without wings, meanwhile, is proof that Leupagus' shipping game has the gravitational pull of a planet, because I'm fairly sure none of us shipped Luke/Poe before she manifested it, and it is now one of my forever OTPs.

_____________

I mean, I love a bunch of fic by these people in other fandoms: [personal profile] copperbadge's White Collar stuff, or [personal profile] rageprufrock's Sherlock fic, and [personal profile] astolat's insane ability to drag us all into fandoms we don't know or like (Transformers, obscure video-games, Game of Thrones). I had forgotten that [personal profile] musesfool had Renault fic, so that's me set for staying up half the night. And I love fic by other people in these fandoms: it feels very strange to not rec [personal profile] dira and [personal profile] dragonlady7 when I read so many of their stories on pretty much a weekly basis, but.
This reclist is the fannish gestalt which I grew up reading, and I'm trying to use Snowflake to also talk about my fannish self.
toujours_nigel: sunrise over silhouetted trees (nature)
Day 6: In your own space, create a list of at least three fannish things you'd love to receive, something you've wanted but were afraid to ask for - a fannish wish-list of sorts.


I wouldn't say afraid to ask for, exactly, since I'm fairly certain I have asked for this stuff in the past, but I'd love
  • liveblogs/book-review style commentaries
  • art
  • playlists
for any of my fic.



ETA: I would LOVE to be asked for DVD commentaries for my fic.

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Day 5: In your own space, promote three communities, challenges, blogs, pages, Twitters, Tumblrs or platforms and explain why you love them.

This is difficult because I haven't been active on dw for ages, and a lot of the communities I used to follow have gone quiet. But let's try anyway. I assume this doesn't include fanwork pages of any sort, because that's what I can gather from the people who've done it already. All of these are multi-fandom clearinghouses.

[community profile] bestthingever and [community profile] fancake are multifandom reccing communities, of which the former is focused on amazing new stories, while the latter allows thematic recs across fandoms.

[community profile] das_sporking2 sporks original fic and fanfic alike, and to devastating effect. I'm currently following [personal profile] gehayi et al's sporking of the Mists of Avalon, and it is ab-fab at bringing out the many many issues with the novel.

[community profile] fan_flashworks runs thematic challenges thrice a month, and welcomes fic, art, and other fanworks in your fandom of choice.

Finally, [site community profile] dw_community_promo is, as the name suggests, the place to go to if you've got a community to talk up; it is also therefore a very good place to hang around if you want to find out about new communities or challenges. It's always relatively active, and fairly hopping right now.



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Day 4: Comment to someone you haven't ever interacted with before or introduce yourself to someone you've interacted with and friend/follow them.

I have been doing that for the last several days, and just left a comment on [personal profile] potofsoup's Day 3 entry about Moana and Captain America. The DW resurgence has also been excellent in terms of making friends with new people and interacting with journals where I've lurked for about a decade.
So, on that note, if you stumble upon this and want to say hi, or leave a comment or interact: I'm fairly friendly, I've been trying to do better about posting, and I'm pretty happy to mutually subscribe and/or grant access.




toujours_nigel: peter otoole touching his collar (lanyon)
Day 3: In your own space, share a favorite piece of original canon (a TV episode, a song, a favorite interview, a book, a scene from a movie, etc) and explain why you love it so much.

This feels like being asked to decide one'a favourite family member... which my father does often and only about 80% jokingly, which is why he's Not It. Anyway, taking strength in the indefinite article and my recent review for Yuletide, let's say The Charioteer, which is a novel set in 1940 and centres on Our Protagonist (a posh Oxfordian who's half-Irish and traumatised and disabled post-Dunkirk) finding his feet in the queer circles of fictionalised Bristol, and his way in a love-triangle with a Conscientious Objector somewhat younger than himself, who he thinks is unaware and chaste, and the older and self-aware man on whom he had a schoolboy crush. I love it for N number of reasons, not least that I used it to charm my SO of eight years into becoming friends with me when we first met.

And now, a bit from the novel that unfailingly wrecks me:
'Come here, then,' said Ralph with gentle arrogance. 'Come and say goodbye to me.'

Afterwards he said, 'Are you going to be angry with me, Spuddy, as soon as you're alone?'
Does me in every single time, and not just because of the devastating elegance of that "Afterwards", though I'll absolutely admit that Renault's insouciant obliquity about sex is something I find incredibly appealing.

I've always loved those lines, since first reading the novel--huh, ten years ago nearly--and it's not quite possible to overstate how much. They come after some eight pages of fighting about whether or not to break off a relationship that has crept up on Our Protagonist (Laurie/Spuddy) and swept him off his feet in a moment of emotional vulnerability. Ralph's spent those pages arguing his side of things (they're in love, why the hell not), accepting--with rather good grace under the circs--that Laurie loves someone else, and agreeing to polyamory with some astonishment at the idea that he wouldn't be accommodating. (The reader, and Laurie, have met one of his exes who tends to sleep around a lot so I mean, Laurie is more surprised and irritated by Ralph's acceptance of The Other Man than I was even the first time I read the novel.)

But anyway, all to no avail. It wouldn't work, Laurie says, he'd feel bad, and The Other Man would know, and Laurie would rather deprive himself of a shockingly compatible relationship than hurt His feelings. No rational or emotional argument Ralph puts forward is convincing enough, and I've gotta tell you, I'm extremely gay and if a dude said all the things to me that Ralph does to Laurie, I'd be buying my trousseau. Laurie however, is made of sterner stuff.

Okay, then. Ralph, horribly practical, interposes the last thing he's got between Laurie and the door: his body. How d'you convince a 23 y.o. whose libido is just reawakening after a terrible injury and resultant PTSD to not leave you in favour of chastely pining for The Other Man? You fuck him into submission.

Yeah. Ralph Lanyon is his own set of warnings, as [personal profile] lilliburlero keeps saying. He's not a particularly nice man, but he does know what will work, and he does know that Laurie won't like him for it, but he will stay--for a while, but it's 1940, for a while is longer than most people have. Of course it's not as though Laurie is particularly nice in the moment either because he doesn't mean to keep staying with Ralph and all the high-minded chastity doesn't last longer than a popsicle in May when he's around the boyhood crush who's grown into a generous lover.

A n y w a y. Right, so. I love this bit because of the craft of it, but mostly because of the way it exposes Ralph's awareness of his sexual appeal--or the appeal of his sexual availability, at any rate--and his absolute willingness to exploit it. Being the sort of person who likes breaking her own heart, I also love it because of their mutual cruelty. A substantial section of the (minuscule) fandom also accepts that Ralph was briefly a prostitute, which makes this Worse Not Better, because of course he knows his appeal, but Christ does Laurie have to like him most for that?



...I promise I don't always like it when people are angsty and fucked-up.
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Day 2: Rec at least three fanworks that you didn’t create.

I am very lucky to be following a lot of people who not only write but rec widely, so I get to read very widely indeed. So these are from three separate fandoms, but all centre on female characters, two of them genderbent, and one canonically female. I love how this focus recontextualises and often changes the story.

Oldest, best known, and fandom classic, The Least of All Possible Mistakes, by the amazing [personal profile] rageprufrock, all of whose fic you should read as and when time permits. TLoAPM stars no-nonsense Detective Inspector Georgiana Lestrade, who is large and in charge and beset by a plague of Holmses, and vaguely befuddled to be falling for one of them. Pru's George is the sort of woman I want to grow up into, commanding and compassionate and exceedingly cherishable. While her growing relationship with Mycroft Holmes is central to the story, arguably as important are her friendships and camaraderie with the other women of the Met., her exasperated fondness for Sherlock and resigned affection for John and Anthea. I loved it to pieces the first time I read this fic, if it were a physical book I'd have turned it to tatters with my multiple rereads, and the audiofic by [personal profile] lazulus is a separate delight.

[archiveofourown.org profile] sovin is primarily a Les Mis writer, at least by proportion, but I first encountered the mist that cloaks the river, the clouds that hide the stars, which is a Nirvana in Fire fic, and fell promptly and deeply in love, both with her writing, and the character around whom the story is built. Canonical Yan Yujin, a sweet and deceptively intelligent young aristocrat, is something like Bertie Wooster with brains, and extremely appealing in his own right. Genderbent in [tumblr.com profile] sovinly's hands, Yujin is a masterclass of soft power and careful networking and the absolute necessity for young women to keep themselves largely hidden to hold onto autonomy. Yujin, unmarried ten years past adulthood and carefully brushing past the continuing implications of her childhood betrothal to [spoilers], assiduously maintains her relationships with other women (mostly canonical) and brings to the reader's attention the depth of female and familial connections that underpin the world of the show. Sovin also talks at some length about the fic on her tumblr, and I raged through the fic, through her tag, and then through the fic again in a matter of a weekend.

I found out about Work of all Saints, [archiveofourown.org profile] antistar_e's epic Coco fic through a rec by I think [tumblr.com profile] notbecauseofvictories. I hadn't watched the film at that point, but lack of knowledge of canon rarely stops me from consuming fanwork, so off I went. And then I spent the whole day reading the story, and then I watched the film and wept my way through it, so, uh, good decisions all around. Anyway. The fic is primarily from the perspective of Imelda Rivera, who falls in love, grabs onto her chance for independence, and sets off singing through early twentieth-century Mexico. She finds new people and friendships along the way, tries to figure out polyamory, and finds herself alone in a village with a toddler: metamour vanished, husband assumed vanished [but really spoilers]. She gets back up, learns a trade, sets up and runs a multigenerational household, and just... lives. She lives so completely that death doesn't do much to take away her vibrancy, and that is the sort of old lady I hope all of us manage to become. The fic is steeped in the material history of the time, and the intricacies of revolution, counter-revolution, insurgency and demographics of which I know less than nothing, but which make it feel real in a way that both throws the supernatural elements into stark relief and meshes with them.



ETA: I cannot believe I forgot to rec Erebor and Weeds, my favourite Hobbit genderflip series, by the inimitable [personal profile] leupagus.



.... I really hope we get to rec creators at some point during this, cause I can think of easily a dozen whose collected works have kept me alive and some semblance of sane.
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Day 1: In your own space, talk about your Happy Place—the things that give you joy, calms you or keeps you sane.
  • Fandom. I'm not kidding, not even a little bit. I have read about five different stories just today, and today has actually been a pretty easy day all told. I have weeks and months, even years when I can't be an active participant in fandom, when even commenting is difficult, and actually creating something is beyond me. But I can always read, and I do, and I read fast and often to the exclusion of anything else. It has kept me happy, and sane, and connected, and I have a feeling alive. It's one of my tumblr tags!
  •  

  • Reading in general, especially and increasingly sf/f written by women and queer folk. I'm looking forward to having a job so I can afford to buy books, but there are plenty of free-to-read magazines and they're full of lovely visions of other worlds, other times, other lives.
  •  

  • Cooking! This has grown on me in the last couple years, and I'm not very good, but it's a soothing thing to do, and often my one concrete achievement of the day.
  •  

  • Photography. I have an instagram account that is usually updated daily, and while most of it is food photos, sometimes I photograph books, plants, people.
  •  

  • Talking to [personal profile] filia_noctis. Well, her in general, but it feels like objectification to call my partner a thing that gives me joy. But definitely she's my Happy Place, and definitely conversations with her often do the heavy lifting re: keeping me going.
(five things make a list)


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