Alphabet Soup

[toujours_nigel]

I have lost them--
I never used any, so it's not that great a loss--
But I have lost them all,
And it bothers me--
Nobody believes I have OCD, but I do, about words--
To have lost all those words
That I was keeping for you.

I have lost you, too--
Are you happy? Will you stop calling me, please?--
But that hurts rather less;
You were honestly lost--
Are you getting married soon-ish? Will you invite me?--
But those words still
Rattle around my mind.

I have lost the meaning--
The coherence, as it were, the very sense of them--
But the letters themselves,
In strange combinations--
A phrase, a query that must once have had meaning--
Recall their old selves
And mine so safely lost.